i woke up randomly today.  at first it was 6 in the morning because of a dream that i had.  it wasn't bad but then again it wasn't good.  i read what you wrote to me.  you always seem to make everything better.  i'm fine now.  no more being sad or anything.  i'm taking your advice on what you said the other day.  who knows where it's going to take me.  we'll just see what happens.  what you said meant a lot to me.  thanks for everything.  oh yeah, don't give me that best gf crap when i was basically your only one...haha...you dork shut up.   i'm NOT stupid asshole...lol...but you watch, that line is going to still remain the same because no one compares to me and you KNOW it!!! dont deny it...i'll probably be the only girl that cares so much and tried to show it and other stuff...haha  damn i flatter myself too much..but yeah, first gf is always considered the best one no matter what anyways...haha!! anyways, what you wanted, i promise you with maybe an exception.  if it's holidays or if its a special occasion or something.  you take care of yourself too.  if you need anything, know that i'm always here even when i'm gone in another state being a millionaire or something.  hAhaha i just love making myself feel good...haha  but yeah, thanks for everything also, especially showing me that a guy's point of view matters too.  oh yeah, i lied lol. i had no heart at the moment to tell you.  i wanted to be mean.  but to be honest, on my list, you stand next to him.  no one compares to you two.  very different and unique in my eyes.  but yeah, i'll probably be the one who will start the talking...haha...catch you later bugsbunny! (if you were paying attention to the joke)

.our story always has a happy ending no matter what happens to us.
.i just know it.
o4o20o5o - o2o2o6o

it's been 2 weeks since i blogged...my mind is still fresh but dont worries, it'll be shorter than the last one if you guys read the last one...haha  this blog i guess you can say is mainly about mikey since i did say i'll blog (like last week)...i just graduated from ACC...some of you guys asked and heard already...the comprehensive for the pharm tech i got a 93% and for the drug test i got a 99%...not bad...i have to start extern soon so yeah  i guess its suppose to be good news but damn, these 2 weeks have been the best since college started cuz i've been so free (besides the holiday break) and i'm able to go out more now with the free time...so anyways, last week i went to phat's house for a lil' bit before class...mikey moved in last week so i saw him a lot for the past 2 weeks...i like where he lives..the ppl are cool too...the first hour of him living here we went to irvine spectrum and ate dinner...blah blah blah...for the weekend, i hung out with mikey...met his cousin...to think of it, they resemble in some way...haha...there was another day eating sushi with mikey...that foo skurred me about that spider roll...ewww!!  played pool, HE SUCKS... haha j/k!! i'm better than you though!! you gotta admit!! haha there was a time when he was printing me out a map of irvine and in that time, one after the other, i made almost all of the stripe balls in besides one!! so yeah, ohhh we also got to watch american pie band camp...

yesterday went to guppys...saw someone that i shouldn't have ever seen ever again in this lifetime  each time i see him, my heart just breaks...all the drama comes back to me...i mean like, i should've just left from the start...it was a bad moment...i saw the cars..i saw you...it's not like i dont hear about you...we do have the same friends... just that look in your eyes yesterday...iono...i'm sorry.  it didn't hit me to now...i did feel uncomfortable though...you don't see that happening often besides at school. i hate when you guys bring "us" up too..i mean, it doesn't bug but it hurts and you guys know it.  i don't want to talk about it.  i will breakdown. i always do about that subject anyways.  turkey asked me: "what is your biggest regret?"  if only you knew and would believe me..i'm sorry. i wish things were different.  oh yeah, cindy called to go eat but sorry dears, i was busy...hmmmm thats all i can remember....i'm taking 2 classes for intercession...i see old friends and i've met plenty more  i love it!!

i gotta blog about this guy because it's his birthday...HAPPY BIRTHDAY  he's cool...funny....a great friend...blahs...we have differences but yet we have like the same mind...he can be serious but can be so fuckin hilarious...can be a lil' freaky...for example: whatever i'm thinking, he says it right when it's running through in my head...there were a few times when i just turned my head towards him and he nods then he says whatever i'm thinking and he IS correct!! he reads me like a book...today, that foo made me laugh so hard that my tummy started hurting and tears started rolling down...this girl was like "what did you guys do that's so funny?? you guys can't stop laughing" HAHA...oh yeah, that fucker...i saw him on the road just an hour ago and he was all up following me...i thought he was gonna hit me damn fucker!! haha anyways, until next time!!

nancy: He was like trying to dedicate you a song
nancy: did you listen to the song?
me: HELL NO!!!!!!!
nancy: why not?
me: he needs to get a life
nancy: he likes you
nancy: I know that!!! I think that we all know that

^and i thought i was mean!!!

"i'm sorry. it's the past. could be a possible mistake from the beginning...my regret: the ending"
-it's the past...doesn't matter-

LiL X AznBoyz X: ill ttyl
LiL X AznBoyz X: =)
LiL X AznBoyz X: u know there's always a piece of u inside my heart

^^even though its been a long time since we actually hung out, i love you!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE

so the last blog was basically nothing..."today" and i never finished...haha i don't even remember...this year has been a blast overall...had its ups and downs...so i'm finally a full-time college student...lets see...lets recap what i remember since that actual blog on august 22...that week babe and i went to san diego and mexico...wells, TJ only...wasn't able to get drunk though cuz how the fuck were we gonna go back if we did...haha...the week afterwards we started school and i still saw him almost everyday like the usual...didn't do much in september but october was exciting  so lets see...my birthday was exciting...i  my babe and friends for still celebrating with me and putting up with my kid-ness inside of me...i visited charlene on her bday and her and peter came on mine..i didn't really have my phone so i missed a lot of ppl...i had school on my bday so couldn't do much until the weekends...all i did was chuckee cheese with brian, nancy, alexis, natalie, miguel, and fuller for like 3 hours...long came to visit me..my buddy from elementary that still lives by me..haha...before going to my night class i received a call from papi, long, and richard but missed them cuz i got out of class pretty late cuz i pissed of the teacher by "being smart"...haha...not my fault she was being a dumbass...anyways, she finally knew it was my bday and let me go...haha...i went over babe's house and we left to a few places just to go eat but almost everywhere was closed...came home pretty late and i knocked out...OMG...and TAN flew over from florida to CA for my birthday to surprise me  ur the best!! he said he was gonna come when we have winter break but i guess not!! ....so that weekend i forgot that i had work so my plans were ruined...work was boring and i ended up quitting anyways...i made $10 an hour and to you guys *ahem PETER* its something but to me, its nothing...especially when i was lookin for $14...so that first paycheck i got a lot but i never kno where my money goes anyways...haha...it was great...no tax  now i'm kinda working overseas but i'm lazy so not getting paid as much...anyways, on 10/20 we went to seaworld and was hella tired so knocked out...the next day we went to knotts scary farm and i didnt wanna drive home so babe drove my car back to my house and he just slept over...next day i dont remember what we did but i think it was orange hill...?? wells yeah it was one of the 3 days..so now november...so went gambling here and there with babe and i lost when babe won...kinda even out but babe won more...so 2 days afterwards, we went to buy like almost $120 worth of food to eat...haha  it looked a lil' but iono dude, the total was like $117 or something...uhhh, in november he started working a lot more so i saw him less  went to guppys a few times and stuff...applied for the UC school as a junior so if i get in, i'm gonna be class of '08!! yay...!! i also crashed farmer's cribb in UCR for the weekend came back a day early cuz he had to study for finals and i hung out with babe....so december was hell for me...i had finals for fuckin 2 weeks...every class i did alright in besides one of the "easy" classes i had...i got a stupid C in the class...the dean had to approve me to take 32-33 units in one semester...bio, econ (micro), history (175), and the other classes i did really well...i got into that last english (eng110) and that class i enjoyed the most...OMG i talked to cindy and found out that stupid the history i took, history175, that's a junior class!! i did really well for a freshman though...and hist170 is a prereq supposely but i got in anyways...i love my essays they were so much better from eng100 and high school essays...so overall, i maintained a 3.5 GPA... i guess it's alright but it took me forever to maintain a 4.0 until this stupid fall semester when i'm a college student i dropped...complain complain, what else do i do best  i'm having funn ever since winter break started...i've met more and more ppl as the days passed which is great...they're pretty cool...i had a great time having class with phat and his friends so the new ppl that i met this semester i have chem180 (general chem...prereq for og chem) and math290 (that last class after calculus 3) with them...ohhh this is gonna be funnn i hope  uhh my major is still business..i'm almost done YAY!! 2 more years..and pharm tech...*i'm done*...i decided recently to jump to the next level of being a pharmacist since now i have my pharm tech license...i still think its a fuckin useless piece of paper that can get you a job that pays a lil' more than usual...jodi was right...if i finish for the pharmacist license then its another stupid paper that gets you a higher paying wage...anyways, i went into stocks and i've learned a lot about different companies that i never heard about...i've got tips from few ppl that i knew and they've been right so i've earned some money but i got too greedy and lost some too...hmm...winter break is almost over...i really enjoyed it...i've got hook-ups for so many things for babe and i for this past 2 weeks to keep ourselves busy...we went to universal studios only paying for lunch...at night went to guppys...i also got special passes for disneyland but we're not gonna go yet...free movie tickets but we go somewhere else...uhhh...i've been doin my own thang ever since i havent seen babe so much anymore  i visited cindy at work once and we went to go eat afterwards...i had to leave early tho cuz i forgot my cell and incase babe called (he did) we were gonna go chill...visited babe once at work (bad timing) so i left and bumped into tommy, alex, christine, etc. i been lucky at every mall i go to...a few times going to west mall its packed but yet i get one of those close parkings by the door so i don't have to walk so much later gettin to the car...AND the parking is open right when i get there...i guess those dumbass ppl miss those parkings...j/k!!  i go south coast and same thing..i get there and there's 3 cars in front of me and one parks hella far, the other 2 like miss the closest parking to the door (and i get it) and i see them parking hella far in the next lane...dumbass i tell you...haha...anyways, i went to minh's party and it was a cockfest...AGAIN...haha...damn do i just feel special...i was mainly with tony though...a lil' pressured to start drinking but no no no, i promised babe so yeah i was left out plus i was gonna go see babe anyways...so yeah, this week alone, my money went down the drain...babe and a few other ppl knows...*shhh!!* lets just say hundreds of $ dont even compare how much i dont have anymore...some were stocks for this week and some weren't...anyways, babe spent xmas with me...i was able to get hook-ups (a room in paris) in vegas for us but didn't kno if he was working so that was a waste...TWICE DUDE!! all b/c of his schedule...j/k babe...next time!! if i'm not lucky again, u can pay for the room...haha  this winter break i went to guppys 4 times..2-3 days apart....ate at so many restaurants and i've been spending money like crazy...i recommend this place in newport though...i can't remember the name but i kno the directions...the bar is on ground but for eating, ur on a boat...very romantic...babe and i enjoyed it...anyways, hung out with cindy 2 days ago...called jen up but she never texted me back so iono what her and i think sam ended up doing or anything...i wanted a girls night out cuz its been such a long time but cindy ended up going home after circuit city (visitin her friend) and so i left with babe until the next morning...omg, i've been barely sleeping...ohhh to top it off was my new years...first off, turkey dropped by and we were chit-chatting and one part of the convo he was like "whoever date you is going to be poor"   psh!!! how dare you turkey!! haha j/k...he said i want to much...just like long!! you guys...whatevers... haha...so yeah, i was in a tournament to play random games (like solitaire, bejeweled 2, blackjack, poker, paigow, etc.) you kno those card gambling games besides the first two...and i won a lil' but fuckkk i wouldn't leave so i ended up losin overall...i played the touranment for 3 hours until babe called and i was with him for the countdown then left to his friend's cribb for poker...cockfest AGAIN...babe and quang (from morningside! havent seen him in years) was out on the first round..what a loser ...he still can't get over it...both of them had triple kings...(pretty good) but charlie had a straight...omfg, that was so sad...they went all in too...tsk tsk tsk...i sitll laugh at this moment haha  sorry its just funny seein babe lose so quickly...so i got home at like almost 5 in the morning and couldn't sleep so i decided to go back to finish the tournament i started and it was fuckin bullshit!!! i won only 2 games...i'm so mad at this moment!!  oh wells...almost 8 AM is when i decided to fuckin leave cuz i kept on losing money and knock out...got up at like 2 PM !!! so fuckin early!! it's almost 5 now...i'm still waitin for babe...i think he ended up having work today so yeah....school is gonna start in 2 days for me cuz i'm takin intercession...anywayssss....hope all of u guys enjoyed these 2 weeks...sorry for not hanging out with everybody...i still need to see will cuz shittt its been almost 2 years since we've hung out...we use to be hella close but he moved and now he's back so yay  ohhhh and mikey (sunshineee) is moving down here!!! he's gonna start living here in 5 days!!!  oh how exciting!! now he lives like 15-20 minutes away from meeee....haha ohhhh how greatttt!! haha... happy new years everybody

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